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Thursday, March 5th, 2009
9:49 am	Groovy!! As you may or may not know, we've been through some rough times as of late. Dana narrowly missed being laid off, I totally went off the road in the fog, impossible to find childcare to have band practice, CD still not done...I could go on and on. So out of the blue comes our saviour, Yvonne. She's this super sweet girl who lives about a mile from where we practice, who will watch our little ones for nothing! When we went to pick the kids up, Faith wanted to spend the night there. I have officially adopted Yvonne into my family. It's awesome how every now and then, when things start to get rough, someone special shows up to help out. The drums are done, and a lot of the bass and guitar are done. So we're getting closer. We have a show on March 14th, so hopefully lots of people will come and see us play. It's been a while. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2009
9:22 am	Hello again, my huge army of peeps... I swear...it seems like I've been off and on sick since November. I want to shove a vacuum into my respitory system and suck all the gook out. So tired of it! Let's see...what's new? Not much. Panik is still recording. We're redoing the drums, and they're sounding pretty nice. We'll see how everything goes. Do any of you know of any good bands I can put on our bill at the River Rock? It seems nobody is available on 3/14. Just picked up the new Morrissey CD - Years of Refusal. I'm enjoying it. It's weird...I spent a good part of my late teens/early 20s totally ripping on ol' Moz. I guess I just didn't get it during my metal years. Now Moz/the Smiths are up there in the ranks of my favorite music. I guess I'm an odd little cat, eh? My music tastes are all over the map, but yet I'm extrememly picky. It has to be real, whether it's metal, rock, mod, alt, punk, whatever. I fit in all of the genres, but at the same time don't. Did that make sense? That's the same with my life...I fit in, but I don't. I think that is why so many of my songs have something to do with alienation and stuff like that. All of my circles of friends see a different version of me. Very few actually know all sides of me. Very few. I'm not exactly sure why, but I think I'm just afraid of not being accepted or something like that. Yeah, I have issues. Okay, I'm blabbing now. I'm still writing for Fringe magazine. I'm not sure how long it's going to last though. The mag is having a very hard time selling ads. No ads, no mag...it's that simple. That would totally suck if it were to go away, as I really enjoy being part of it. I'm still looking for additional writing opportunities. Okay, that's all for now. I'll have either really good news or really bad news next week. We'll see. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Monday, December 29th, 2008
9:30 am	Almost 2009 Just a quick note to say HI again. I don't have a clue as to what to talk about today. I'm rocking out to Die Mannequin right now. Love them! You should also check out The Creepshow. They're kinda like Horrorpops, but a bit beefier. Love them too! Both of these bands hail from the great white north. I have to tall ya, Canada has some awesome bands, eh! I need to pick up the new G'n R (don't know why, I'm just curious), something from the Delgados (found them by mistake, they're kinda like the Cranberries, but Scottish), and Bitter Suites to Succubi from Cradle of Filth. Yeah, the Cradle. There's a nifty cover of No Time to Cry from the Sisters of Mercy on that album. Yeah, my music tastes are all over the map. Kind of like me. Kind of like the music I write. Kind of like the stories I do. Kind of like my life. I just got Son of Sam's "Songs From the Earth" CD. I heard it a few years back, and had no idea that it was basically Samhain with Davey Havoc (AFI) singing on it. Neato. I think I'm gonna get a Jack & Sally tattoo. I just don't know where yet. I'm sleepy for some reason. I wish I had a whole day to just sit down and read and watch movies and stuff. Never gonna happen though. Neil Gaiman's new novel, The Graveyard Book, is a lot of fun. I'm enjoying it. Within its mighty pages, I found an old rhyme that my grandfather used to say to me, and I have no idea why. "Here comes a candle to light you to bed, here comes a chopper to chop off your head." Heehee, fun stuff! I also finished the first Twilight book. It was fun, yes. Kind of like 90210 with vampires. Perhaps the next books will be at least a little scary? (I got the second one for Christmas, so I guess I'll find out soon enough) I'll talk to y'all soon. I know that nobody reads these, so it's like I'm talking to myself. Yayy, I really AM crazy! Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 24th, 2008
8:56 am	It's been a whole year? Dang, I suck at keeping this up to date, eh? I was reading my last entry from last December, and I'm happy to say that yes, we did make it to Disneyland! Let me tell you something...the holidays are the BEST time to go there! It's so magical...all the decorations, lights, parades, the Haunted Mansion is done up as Nightmare Before Christmas, it snows every night...it's truly wonderful, and that was my girls' first time! What a wonderful experience. I will never go there during any other season again. Let's see, Brayden was born on January 9th, and he's one huge little dude! He's really mellow, unlike his sister. :-) Hmmm...what else...we've had our share of unfortunate incidents as well. I took my car completely off the road during a serious bout with the fog...I damaged my water pump, which was very expensive. However, I'm lucky I didn't die. The heater in my house went out on the coldest night of the year. That sucked too. Writing has been awesome this year. I got to write about some truly wonderful people that I care about a lot...Jeff Becerra, Hayley Morgan, Charisse Fitzer, Jared Konopitski, etc. I love sharing these great people with others. Oh yeah, and I got to interview Joan Jett! Amazing! I've had the pleasure of hanging with some of my other faves as well...Girl in a Coma and the Dollyrots! Ahhh, 'tis fun. Panik had some great shows as well. We ventured outside of our comfort zone and performed in Tahoe and San Francisco. Good times. Yeah, our CD is not done yet, but we're working on it. We had some time off at the beginning of the year, as our baby was born. We then made a tough decision and obtained a new drummer. I do believe this change has been beneficial for all parties involved. So yeah, that took some time, but we've been non-stop ever since. We already have shows scheduled for Chico and Modesto for the first portion of 2009, and who knows what else! We did a pretty cool rendition of O'Holy Night at our last show. The video is currently up on our MySpace page. Enjoy it now, for it won't be there much longer. We plan to put together a Christmas CD to release in late 2009, which will have a couple of original holiday tunes, as well as a couple old faves. Probably 5 songs or so, it's going to be really special. I have a sinus infection right now. It's no fun at all. I'm on antibiotics. Since I can't take them dang horse pills, I requested the liquid form. It tastes bitter and yucky. So is that enough? I was going to write something introverted about myself, but I think I've made this long enough. If anybody actually reads these, please let me know. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
12:59 pm	A great year! Here are a few things I'm very proud of for 2007: Sammie's first singing performance in her school talent show.  She did such a wonder job singing Reflection from Mulan...all by herself! Faith's first ballet performance - The Littlest Nutcracker - so CUTE!! Braiden is almost ready to be born! Working on the new Panik CD.  (It will come out one day...I promise!  The guitars are about 45% done) I started writing for Fringe Magazine.  (www.fringemag.com)  Through this, I have had the opportunities to interview hang out with a lot of my favorite bands:  Kittie, Flogging Molly, Stolen Babies, Creature Feature, Horrorpops, etc.  It has been a wonderful experience, and it will help me pay for my family's trip to Disneyland in November of 08. Hmmmm...I got a semi-promotion to another position where I work.  This happened way back at the beginning of the year, so I almost forgot. LOGS found me!  Finally! I got to see a lot of my old school friends at my high school reunion.  Thanks to Darinda for getting the whole thing on track.  It was so good to see everyone.  It was also nice to have been able to play a show the night after for all my friends. Cheers to all of you!  I hope everyone has a fantastic 2008!  Remember, life is about creating memories!  May all of yours be positive.  I love you all! Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 17th, 2007
4:29 pm	Updates Howdy, y'all! Today is Faith's 3rd birthday! I can't believe she is 3 already. Where does the time go? We finished recording the drums last night, so the new Panik CD is coming along well. We'll be starting on the bass and guitars next, probably in another week or so. We're taking our time with this one, making sure it will be the best it can be. We'll be playing a show in Marysville toward the end of August. We've really never played outside the immediate Sac area, so it should be interesting. The new Fringe magazine is out. I have two articles in there! Pick one up and read it, dang it! If you happen to live in some jacked up place like Kansas or something, you can go to www.fringemag.com. At the bottom, there is a search window. Type in my name and all my articles will come up. It really works! Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Friday, July 6th, 2007
9:40 am	Movin' right along... Yeah, that was a Muppets song. :-) We've finished the scratch tracks for the new CD, and that feels pretty darn great! Now the real test begins! We'll be recording drums starting this weekend. Ol' Sausage will do just fine. It's freakin' HOT out there, isn't it? Geez! 110 yesterday! It's 9:45 AM, and it's already in the 80s out there, and cloudy. I saw mamatus under the clouds this morning, so it's humid as well. It'll probably rain just enough to make the cars all spotty. Did I mention last time that I got my new Fringe articles done? I don't know if they'll be used, but I'm quite proud of them this time. My editor is trying out to be on the "Next Elvira" reality TV show. heehee Remember, release your inner Elvis. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Friday, June 29th, 2007
5:08 pm	A little closer... We got the scratch tracks down for three more songs last night...woohoo! That brings the grand total to eight! Three more to go... This is going to be quite a long, intense project for us. We're going to put in all the blood, sweat and tears for all of you...and we really hope you enjoy the fruit of our efforts. Look for it to be done sometime around late summer or early fall. Hey, we want to take our time and do it right, right? The 4th of July is coming up next week, and I have no idea what I'm going to do. I have to have two stories written this weekend...yikes!!! HELP!!! For those of you that don't know, I write for Fringe Magazine. I try to do two articles a month for them. This is going to pay my family's way to Disneyland next year! Yayyyyyy! Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 26th, 2007
9:06 am	Recording has begun! It's about time, eh? We're finally recording a new CD! Last night we completed the scratch tracks for 5 songs. We have 6 songs to go, and then the real fun begins. In case you're wondering what is going to be on the CD, here is a song list...in no particular order... Freak Like Me I Gave Everything Hurt Dark Secret Ashes If You Really Love Me Torn & Tattered Gray Tell Me It's Too Late (and a new song...it's a secret though, because nobody has heard it yet) So there you go...11 songs! Woohoo! That is, it'll be 11 if they all turn out fantastic. If not, it's possible that a song or two may be dropped. Let's hope for the best though, m'kay Mr. Mackey m'kay? I'm hoping to have this thing done by the end of August, but it may be September, depending on how critical we are. And trust me, I'm critical! I really hope it comes out well, and I really hope you all enjoy it. Once this is done, we'll throw one heckuva bash! And Logs WILL be here to attend. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
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Tuesday, June 12th, 2007
9:31 am	LOGS! Yes, people, Logs is back!  You are probably wondering, what on earth am I talking about?  Logs was my very bestest friend at Sprint (where I used to work)...back in the glory days of Go Hemmmmm!    She was brilliant on rollerblades, and was a proud member of the Singingwood Chucks - the most awesomest roller hockey team around!  Actually, she was the ONLY member, heh heh. Logs left us years ago to take up residence in Florida...and then to the beautiful state of KANSAS!  That's right...Kansas!  She then vanished, and we were very sad for many years.  For all we knew, she was off in a cave somewhere, feeding on the people that happened to wander by.  It looks like the brilliant Wizard of Oz has decided to drop her off back in Kansas again, and we are very happy that she is back with us.  Now the next step is to get her and her adorable kid to move back to Cali where she doth belong.  Are ya with me? Logs loves balogna on her pizza.  When that is not available, she enjoys a healthy slab of head cheese.  Ahh, yes, the head cheese with extra snouts.  She can devour pig snouts way faster if she has a complimentary bowl of salted owl beaks to go along with them.  Wash them down with a tall glass of Pabst Blue Ribbon and she's a happy camper.   So let's all thank our lucky stars that Ol' Logs is back in touch.  (Okay, her name is really Shawna - but she very much prefers Logs.  I have no idea why.  I was really uncomfortable calling her that at first, but by now I've grown used to it)   Like me, Logs has gone through some pretty miserable times in her life.  And like me, she has conquered the bad things and has taken over her life.  Way to go!   We rock, don't we?   That's right!    Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 24th, 2007
2:04 pm	Something thoughtful Here is something that I found on MySpace. I think it is absolutely fantastic! Dr. Laura Schlessinger is a US radio personality who dispenses advice to people who call in to her radio show. Recently, she said that, as an observant Orthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22, and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The following is an open letter to Dr. Laura penned by a U.S. resident, which was posted on the Internet. It's funny, as well as informative. Dear Dr. Laura: Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. End of debate. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the other specific laws and how to follow them. 1. When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord -Lev.1:9. The problem is my neighbors. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them? 2. I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her? 3. I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness - Lev.15:19- 24. The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense. 4. Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians? 5. I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself? 6. A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an abomination - Lev. 11:10, it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this? 7. Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here? 8. Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev. 19:27. How should they die? 9. I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves? 10. My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev. 19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? -Lev.24:10-16. Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)? I know you have studied these things extensively, so I am confident you can help. Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 12th, 2007
11:22 am	I'm going to Disneyland! Yep! 'Tis true. I'm going to the Magic Kingdom in a couple of days. It shall be a fun time. Hmmm...what's new? Not a whole lot, I s'pose. There's a new Panik song in the works, which is pretty different for us. We'll hopefully have a show on May 12th at the Kennel, then there are a bunch of open opportunities for us to play at the Boardwalk, Marilyn's, the county fair, and some other places. On top of that, we want to record a new CD. How will we accomplish all of this? Sheesh! I keep having weird dreams that my car is missing. I've been trying to figure out what on earth this is supposed to mean. I really don't know. I also had a freaky dream about this little old Chinese lady giving me acupuncture. She shoved a needle into my finger and it made my finger freeze, and then she wouldn't take it out. That was mean. Sammie had a bad dream about losing an eye. She was afraid to look in the mirror because she thought one of her eyes was going to be gone. Hmmmm...I wonder where she gets that imagination from? heehee Allrighty...I'll be gone for a while, so I'll see ya'll when I return. Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Friday, March 2nd, 2007
9:45 am	Hello world! You know...I have yet to insert a photo on this thing. Perhaps I shall some day. :-) I've always been lazy when it comes to pictures and stuff. I'm just horrible like that. My twin sister from my past recently brought up a good thing to talk about...can one person change the world? Perhaps, perhaps not. I think we need to try though. Some people have had a pretty large impact on the world. Ghandi, Jesus, Abraham Lincoln, Kurt Cobain, the guy that invented the iPod, etc. They may not have changed the world, but they did do something to enlighten a lot of people, whether it was a ripple or a tsunami. A ripple can turn into a tsunami. Or, if it starts as a tsunami, the ripple can go a long way. Think about the cell phone. Go back 15 years, and nobody had one. Now everybody does. Or how about the internet? It seems that most businesses would not survive without it. I just wish people would open up their insides a little bit and learn who they truly are...and then wear it on their outsides. Don't be afraid to be who you are, even if you're weird. Most importantly, don't be afraid to have a voice. If everyone would just use their voices, our own country wouldn't be in the mess it's in right now. How many of you would just love the chance to spit on Mr. Bush? I'll be at leats 90% of the people would love to, or at least want the chance to call him a bad name to his face. Face it...the man doesn't like people, and he doesn't care about those that need him the most. Yet...he's our leader...and because of this, the rest of the world hates us. SAY SOMETHING. Sorry...didn't mean to go political on you...But look at the source, m'kay? Gas is almost 3.00 a gallon again. Why? BECAUSE THEY CAN, AND WE'RE WILLING TO PAY FOR IT! Look at the past. When the first Bush was president, gas was 1.80 a gallon. When Clinton was president, gas was .99 a gallon. Now look. OKAY??? Music for the week: The Smiths, Morrissey, HorrorPops, the new Kittie CD, Flogging Molly, Sex Pistols! Hope to see all of you at the Kennel Club Saturday night. Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 12th, 2007
4:17 pm	Something interesting Okay, so I have this t-shirt that defines music and songs as a unique collection of melody, rhythm, timbre and lyrics that create a sense of emotion. It gives more detail, of course, and I have tired fingers so that's all I'm going to explain. When I saw the shirt at the store, I was drawn to it for some reason, so I purchased it. Looking at it, I got to looking at the message behind the message, and came up with something interesting. Deep, even. A person is also a unique collection of melody, rhythm, timbre, and lyrics that display an emotion. So by comparing a person with a song, where does it lead? I s'pose we could say that each person is a song. Actually, each person is a collection of many songs. It would be hard to describe a person by a song, but can you do it with a few songs? Or to be more simple...a few bands? I'll give it a shot...what bands make up my personality? Hmmmm...this is tough. The Go-gos - upbeat and fun The Misfits - dark and punky Jane's Addiction - loud and artful Sweaty Nipples - oh so fun and rockin' Well, that's four. I could probably come up with more, but not now. Have a good day, my little songs! Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)
Monday, January 29th, 2007
3:45 pm	What's goin' on with me these days? Good question! There's been plenty. Let's see...where to begin... I start a new position at VSP on Monday, 2/5. Excited? Yes. Scared to death? Yes. I've been in the same department for over 10 years now, so leaving my home will be difficult and a bit emotional. I am, you know, kind of a sensitive person. (And I don't like people yelling at me when I'm trying to write, Ms. Care Bear.) I still have lots of songs in my head that I need to get out. Here are the titles...50 Lashes, It Bites, Close My Eyes and Pray, and some other stuff. Hopefully one day soon. My article about music file-sharing made it to the front page (#5) on Helium.Com. That was pretty cool! I wasn't expecting it to be seen by anybody but me. I have lots of little writing outlets, ya know? My neighbor just e-mailed me and asked me to call him, so I s'pose I should. Last time he called, it was because my how water heater was leaking all over my garage. Now I'm scared. See y'all soon! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
12:54 pm	A strong reminder Last night I attended my daughter's school's winter show. My little 6-year old sang her little heart out on Frosty the Snowman. Of course she was the cutest little thing in 1st grade. There were three classes performing. At the end of the show, all of the kids stood up and sang the most touching song I've ever heard. It made me cry. Why? Because, my friends, this world sucks, and people suck. But we aren't doing jack crap about it. The children are our hope, because we are hopeless. Here are the words to "Children of the World." It still makes me cry. When you read them, please imagine about 75 kids singing it to you. We are the children of peace We are the children of the world We are the children of peace We are the children of the world We are the children of hope We are the children of the world We are the children of hope We are the children of the world Listen people everywhere Hear our song Come and take somebody’s hand Sing along The choice is ours What will we do? It’s up to me It’s up to you We are the children of friendship We are the children of the world We are the children of friendship We are the children of the world We don’t want war anymore We are the children of friendship We are the children of the world Listen people everywhere Hear our song Come and take somebody’s hand Sing along The choice is ours What will we do? It’s up to me It’s up to you We are the children of peace We are the children of the world We are the children of hope We are the children of the world We are the children of friendship We are the children of the world xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx So now I have the following questions for you to ponder... 1. Why can kids get along perfectly with other kids, regardless of color, religion, eye shape, whatever...but adults can't? 2. Why can a kid call out the truth, or ask questions like "WHY"...but adults can't? 3. We lose thousands of lives to these stupid god-forsaken wars. Why? 4. When exactly do kids lose their innocense? I'm going to frame the words to this song, and hang it up in my house. I will keep an eye on my children, and see exactly when it no longer matters to them. Hopefully that day will never come. I cry because the song is beautiful, and the words are meaningful. I cry because I feel my generation failed to bring the world together. That's all now. Current Mood: determined (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 9th, 2006
12:12 pm	Great show! Wow! I had an amazing time at the Panik show last Saturday. It felt sooo great to be up there again. We played two new songs: Tell Me and Freak Like Me. I think they came out pretty darned good. Our new bass guy, Eric, did a fantastic job. Things finally feel right, and I can't wait to do it again. It looks like one of the DJs from 98 Rock was there reviewing the show, so look for the review in an upcoming issue of Your Music Magazine. The next new tune to come out will be Gray, which is a bit mellower than the other two. Don't fret though, there are more coming soon! Eric has tons of recording equipment, so it's quite possible that we will be recording again soon. If all goes well, we should have a new CD out sometime next year. FINALLY!!! Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
4:35 pm	Hello again! Life is weird, isn't it? I have a lot of horrible depressing moments, countered by a lot of happy moments. I'm fairly happy right now. Here's why: Panik has a new bass player, and this has rejuvinated my energy into making music again. He has already learned most of the old songs, and we've got a bunch of new songs just about done, and they are so much fun!!! I am really loving this right now, and I totally look forward to practice each week. One of our new songs is called GRAY. It's about helping someone. So here's my message to all of you faithful readers out there, if there are any of you left....if you see someone in need, do not turn your back on them. Embrace them. Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
9:43 am	Chalk Art I had a super time at this year's Chalk It Up art festival. I'm really proud of the piece I created this year. It always makes me feel good to see a bunch of people taking pictures of my creation. Yes, it was hot. Yes, I was very sore. But I return every year to experience it all over again. I really love creating art, as it brings me a peaceful feeling inside. My favorite part of this event though, are the people I hang out with. This group of people, I would consider them to be my favorite friends. We go back a long way, way back to our haunted house days where most of us met. Even though I usually only see them once a year, I really value that time. So, to Dave and Holly (and Ava, even though she stomps the crap out of my feet), Charisse (thanks for startin' this whole thing), Ruh-nayyy, Patricia, Justina, Hayley and Aaron, Monica - thank you so much for being the coolest people ever! I know that the friendship we created will last forever, even if we don't see each other that often. We really must try to change all that. I'm already anxious for next year!!! Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)